[That sudden dead air between her words and his. The deader air afterwords.
This was all too much. There was just something, everything wrong with how this family functioned. No wonder everyone was all screwed up. She didn't know why she was included. That would be a good question.
Did Levant think she would have answers? Maybe some insight on that missing piece? If she weren't so tired emotionally and physically, she'd feel a little bit like there was some trust here.
But she was just stumped and confused. She wasn't so sure what to do. It wasn't like with Larix where his confusion led to incredibly infuriating painful sparkle words with hollow meaning. That set her right off.
This time it was genuine confusion.
What could she DO? This put her in a weird spot she didn't ask for.
But, there was that twinge in her. The twinge of feeling like she had no choice, she had to pull the effort now. Effort. A mean six letter word.]
Is that it? Did you suddenly accept that about yourself? Levant, you're not doing yourself any favors by going full circle on your ideals.
If you really don't want to stay that way forever, you really have to learn from your mistakes and make really tough decisions.
[Ease in Riye, not so harsh. No more coffee.]
It's easy to take the easy route, redundancy aside, its less effort. But if there's anything I had to learn too, nothing comes along easy. Life isn't that way, and it sucks that way. When you want something or when you screw up, the first step is owning it. If you really want the change, you have to work.
It doesn't sound like you want to sink into the same habits, but there's learning and there's making excuses. At least when you try to learn, any confusion or other mistakes is a steeping stone.
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This was all too much. There was just something, everything wrong with how this family functioned. No wonder everyone was all screwed up. She didn't know why she was included. That would be a good question.
Did Levant think she would have answers? Maybe some insight on that missing piece? If she weren't so tired emotionally and physically, she'd feel a little bit like there was some trust here.
But she was just stumped and confused. She wasn't so sure what to do. It wasn't like with Larix where his confusion led to incredibly infuriating painful sparkle words with hollow meaning. That set her right off.
This time it was genuine confusion.
What could she DO? This put her in a weird spot she didn't ask for.
But, there was that twinge in her. The twinge of feeling like she had no choice, she had to pull the effort now. Effort. A mean six letter word.]
Is that it? Did you suddenly accept that about yourself? Levant, you're not doing yourself any favors by going full circle on your ideals.
If you really don't want to stay that way forever, you really have to learn from your mistakes and make really tough decisions.
[Ease in Riye, not so harsh. No more coffee.]
It's easy to take the easy route, redundancy aside, its less effort. But if there's anything I had to learn too, nothing comes along easy. Life isn't that way, and it sucks that way. When you want something or when you screw up, the first step is owning it. If you really want the change, you have to work.
It doesn't sound like you want to sink into the same habits, but there's learning and there's making excuses. At least when you try to learn, any confusion or other mistakes is a steeping stone.